God's voice, not my own

Elmer told me I was different after having a baby.

I was startled, I asked him “what is different?”

He said that I am now more gentle, that before I was more concerned about punishments and behavior.

After reflecting, I realized that yes... my goals had changed, the boys have changed, and I have changed.

I no longer put good behavior and school performance first.

I realize even if they fail one year of school, or steal, or are disrespectful…

The most important is that they experience unconditional love so they can accept it from Jesus and that they learn to trust their inner voice so they can stand up for what is right.

I want them to grow up and be good men of God.

I used to think that meant that my children needed to be obedient, that I needed to teach them obedience.

I was wrong.

I do not want them to obey man at all costs

I want them to hear the voice in their own head.

I want them to hear the Holy Spirit and listen.

My voice is not God’s voice.

I don’t want them to learn what is right I want them to learn to determine what is right.

I want my boys to stand up and do what feels right to them, not follow blindly.

We are back and we are re-focused.